Let's do the crosspost again.
WhatDidThatGirlSay@[EMAIL PROTECTED]
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> Dude,
>
> You need to go to you Blogger Settings and change the ****number of
> posts per page**** to ONE or FIVE and let the archive do the
> work...that page is too long.
>
>
>
> William Blake Jr. wrote:
>> To take responsibility for one's life, one must figure out first what
>> kind of life one is to live.
>>
>> And one does not know what he wants, or what kind of life he wants to
>> live, until he finds it.
>>
>> The process involved exploration; it also involves leaving all that
>> is familiar. And not only do I recognize it to have been right for
>> me to do so, but I will insist absolutely on the right of every next
>> person to do the same.
>>
>> For as long as I was in America, I felt trapped, because I was
>> brought there at age 12 without my approval. So no matter how good
>> my life was, I felt that it was not my own, and I could not take
>> responsibility for it, precisely because it was not mine.
>>
>> I came to America with very strong ethics and very strong ambition. I
>> watched it all eroded from me and torn to pieces by people acting
>> from cruelty and hypocrisy, and then to add insult to injury
>> claiming that they were morally rightful and that I was not.
>>
>> The place became more and more ensnaring, oppressive, malicious and
>> hypocritical, and its claims of liberty and justice became more and
>> more hollow as time went on. The context totalitarianism - the
>> mindset that formulates people's thoughts, perceptions, values and
>> wishes, and is horrendously cruel to anyone with mindset that's any
>> different from it - then sets people thus formulated to compete
>> against one another and calls that liberty as their minds,
>> bludgeoned into perpetuation of the same psychic fallacy, manifest
>> it through the mechanism of context-controlled will into
>> representation of the aforementioned fallacy and calls it reality or
>> commonsense or normalcy or sanity or any one of multiplicity of
>> falsehoods that it is not - became more and more ensnaring; more and
>> more abusive; more and more totalitarian and absolute. America's
>> claims of liberty became more and more hollow and obviously
>> untruthful. And I busied myself with deconstructing this context con
>> in all its multitudinous manifestations, in order that the Gordian
>> knot ensnaring the soul be untied for good, and the soul can live.
>>
>> And then - the entirely unexpected.
>>
>> What I wanted found me, and I've taken the leap of faith.
>>
>> To another continent, and into the arms of my beloved.
>>
>> And out of the context con, both physically and mentally at the same
>> time.
>>
>> And then I finally knew what life I wanted to live.
>>
>> And in the process of taking responsibility for this choice, I've
>> had a crash course in life. I've had to learn to:
>>
>> Admit my mistakes
>> Be considerate of people around me
>> Be self-controlled and composed
>> Pay attention to my surroundings
>> Change my views on a number of subjects
>> Get rid of all kinds of judgment
>> Learn tolerance and patience
>> Think constantly about the good of the next person
>> Leave every emotional, intellectual or spiritual comfort zone I've
>> ever had and risk all kinds of possible damage in order to be close
>> to the person I love.
>>
>> I would not learn any such things while I was in America, because my
>> being in America was not my choice. But where I am now is entirely my
>> choice, and I am taking responsibility for it.
>>
>> So I'm having a lot of adjustment to make, but it's worth it.
>>
>> It's my life.
>>
>> Ilya Shambat
>> http://ibshambat.blogspot.com
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